Positivity

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Why is it we allow people to bring our moods down? 

I am sick of allowing people to have a hold on my mood; this has such a huge impact on my happiness and well being. A lot of the times people know they have the power of doing this and yet still do it, it’s crazy.

I am such a strong person, a long the way I have lost myself. I have become this weak person. A person who allows people to have such a big impact on my emotions and moods.

The problem I am facing is, the old me was cold but I was never hurt. I was told to open up, to allow people in and the outcome of it was people mistreating me and trying to burn me?

I sometimes laugh to myself; go into my little world. Count, breath, relax. Then the floods of tears come gushing down because of how hard I am holding myself from ending this person with my words. Why must one be tested?

Please, accept my apologise; in regards to the fact that my posts are always so negative. I have looked at all my posts are none of them are completely positive and that is not who I aspire to be. I am going to do WHATEVER it takes to become a positive person; whether that means removing every single person who is deceitful and unworthy of my time. I will be that person I picture myself in 10 years time.

I could do with some Yoga. 

There are things I want to cross off from my bucket list, my before 30 list and I think I am finally at a place where I am ready to do them alone. Put myself out of my comfort zone.

Please, readers! The universe! Please send positive vibes towards me to stop me from unleashing the beast inside of me on people! (they do ask for it.) Believe me, it takes me a a cunting lot to explode.

This year really has been a wild one, an eye opening one, a roller-coaster damn it was meant to be the best one yet! I say that every year, but I really believed it last December.

Pst.. Does anyone mediate? And if you do, does it help?

And breath! The sense of relief off your shoulders when you right is beautiful!

I will probably delete my blog permanently next month. As much as I love writing these blog posts, a part of me feels a sense of shame as in I am expressing my weaknesses of situations occurring. So here is to the final month of Goodbye HiddenXTruth!

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It is okay, not to be okay!

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Look, life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. You are going to be tested, you are going to be at your lowest, you are going to rethink your life and it is OKAY not to be okay.

Sometime I think that we forget that we are only humans, that we are allowed to experience different emotions apart from happy and positive ones. We are not weak for those sad and negative emotions. Don’t beat yourself up.

We as a society need to stop telling people “things are going to be okay” “you are going to get through this” all that shit. Honestly? What does that even mean? For someone who is going through so much, those are just blank sentences. Those people you are telling those sentences to have been going through things for a long time and you saying that to them, truly is blank sentences.

We need to find other ways to help each other, to support each other, to listen to each other. We are all so wrapped up in our own lives that all we can offer to someone is “you are going to be okay.”

Anyways, my point is.. it is okay not to be okay. We’re not going to always have good days. Those bad days may last longer than a week, a month, YEARS! But seek advice, professional advice. You would be surprised at how many organisations are out there to help.

Your issue is never TOO little. 

Also, we need to stop telling people “other people have it worse.” Of course they do. There is always going to be someone who is hurting more than you, who is going through more battles than you. Doesn’t mean your battle is any less painful. Pain can not be measured.

I know my blog isn’t the most happiest place; but I have found comfort in writing and most importantly being anonymous. I never thought I would ever write a blog for so many reasons. Especially being found by those who know me, that is still one of my worries! But I am happy to keep writing.

I want my readers to always know, you can reach out to me. I will always be here for any of you. If you need me please please reach out. Whether it is through my blog or through my email. thehiddenxtruth@hotmail.com I am here for you all!

 

 

 

Perfectly Imperfect

Blog, Feelings

I am perfectly imperfect; –I am in love with some of my flaws.-

Refuse to apologise for your flaws, they have made you, YOU.

Your flaws do not define you as a soul. But they have shaped you.

Learn to love your flaws, learn to accept your flaws.

You are not what someone defines you; due to your flaws.

There isn’t any human being without flaws, some have just learned to be best-friends with theirs; learn to do the same, so no one may be able to put you down.

Those flaws you hate so much; they are flaws someone has or will fall in love with.

“Once you accept your flaws, no one can use them against you.”

We have to learn to love ourselves. Every single inch of our bodies and souls. We need to learn to ignore what people think of us. We become so obsessed with the way people view us that we loose ourselves. There is a person in this world for every single one of us, and guess what? That person is going to love every single inch of you. The good and the bad. We all have our flaws, even those who seem “perfect to us”

Loving myself is something I am still learning to do and so is loving my flaws. Some flaws I am in love with and some I hate. 

But I am really trying to learn to love them all. I am who I am.

We’re always told by our parents how perfect we are, how beautiful we are. Do we believe them no? They are our parents, of course they have to say that. But no, what they say is true. Because they created us. So all they see is perfection and beauty. They want that to be instilled in us when we are young but our society changes it all.

Suddenly “YOU ARE LYING MUM, THE CHILDREN AT SCHOOL DON’T THINK I AM.”

What a shame. What a real shame that the words our parents say mean nothing but those of bullies and friends and boyfriends/girlfriends leave us scarred for life. Leave us believing every single words.

Love your flaws – by OPRAH. The Queen, of course.  (This post, by OPRAH, gave me so much life. Read it.)

“Talk to yourself as you would your best friend.” – Victoria Beckham

Another queen, good role model is the beautiful VB. This is something I have learned to do. I talk to myself like I would my best friend, because I am my own best friend. I have had talks with myself about learning to love my flaws.

Learning to love your flaws instead of beating yourself up about them is so difficult but trust me, you will feel so much better about yourself. Hating your flaws will lead to hating your self. Also.. an important question? Do you hate your flaws because you hate them? Or do you hate your flaws because someone has pointed them out to you in disgust?

I guarantee you 9/10 it’s no2. Just remember they also have flaws.

Remember.. “your flaws are perfect for the heart that is meant to love you.” and that is all that matters.